GLAMOUROUS DEMEANOUR

Friday, October 13, 2006 2:17 AM

TODAY'S DYING DAY.

I'm so sick of studying, squeezing all sorts of information into my brain and mermorising things that I hate.

Maybe we shall stage out a fight and pretend that we are pushing each other until we fall out of the window and die together, right Elaine. That will be our suicide plan for now. Until we think of a better plan.... (to be continued)

Didn't go school today. But went to NYJC's openhouse. The facilities aren't bad. Everything is new there. Maybe I should be realistic and aim for NYJC and not SAJC instead. Myabe not even a JC. Maybe a Poly, OR WORSE.... AN ITE! (gasp)

I'm not even enthu about my Hongkong trip at the end of the year. I'm not even looking forward for that time to pass because the O's will be over by then and I know I screwed it up.

O's is totally destroying my life.

I'm feeling really really down now.

And I hate this overwhelming feeling that I'm a useless freak and is not gng to do anything proud for anyone or anybody and I'm just wasting precious resources while I'm living in this world.

Within seconds, I think I'm gng to kill myself since I hate myself so much for living.

RAHHHHH